WHO AM I?

Okay this is the week one challenge at my favorite website… ONLINE CHRISTIAN PARENTS
We have been asked to create a blog

who you are TODAY … who you are at home, in Christ, and who you would like to become in the next year!

Today I am not very happy with who I am. I feel that I am a fake, a doubter, and unsuccessful. I have gone through some major situations in the last little while. I moved for a job, that a subsequently lost for no reason. I have a son who displays some symptoms of autism, but not enough to get the designation… Still he needs help to adjust into the school system. I am lazy. I watch WAY too much TV.

At home I try to be a mom.. When we first moved out here, I kept the house clean, took care of the boys, etc. etc. Now it takes alot to get motivated to clean. I job hunt 3 to 4 hours a day, different websites, recruitment firms, networking. I try to stay inside my little cocoon. My son’s got to childcare, so I can job hunt, which leads me to feel guilty being home without them here.

In Christ, I am a baby.. It is funny what I think and why.. I know nothing… Trust nothing… Try to grow and act like someone mature and knowledgeable just to find out my assumptions are out to lunch and that I am further behind then I originally thought.

I am hoping by next year that I will be more mature in Christ, stronger, more accepting of the lot God has given me in life and well, not so negative.

Right now this seems very far off.